Julie
Servant
You think any one of us is any better than the rest?
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Post by Julie on Feb 1, 2007 13:08:48 GMT -5
I miss Justin. I know I say that all the time, but now it's more true than ever. I wish he could have been here for this. To see him full in his power would have been a sight fit to blind.
You know, I never did find out what court he was from. I guess it just didn't matter that much. We were both sent here, meaning we were both forsaken by our families, and both kicked out of our homes. Compared to where we were at the time, where we came from wasn't all that important. He was there when I needed him, and that's all that I needed to see.
Of course, now I've gone and twisted the knife again. It's not that I didn't believe the counselor when she said it wasn't my fault, it's just that I know better. I will never forget those last days, and I will never forgive the people who forced me to watch, helpless.
That's what I just don't get about these others. Have they never seen what happens to us here? Are they all so sheltered and spoiled that they don't know how bad it can get? I wonder if that's why I lost control the way I did. These blissfully ignorant others who don't know how good they have it - it's like they're all spitting on the grave of the only person I've ever...
Forget it. It's been nearly three years, and I still can't say it. I don't deserve to cherish his memory the way I do. All I deserve is a shallow muddy grave of my own, so they can all spit on me instead.
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